5am

I drank 3 glasses of Scotch Whiskey last night with my friends. I just have that kind of mood to make myself happier and to forget as much as unpleasant things happening recently. We drank till 5am. Thank you guys for accompanying me!

I'm really exhausted in the morning and finished my work at 3pm. Unluckily it rains and makes myself wet when I walked back home. I wait for something to happen but it never happened..

Sometimes, I wish it wasn't so damn hard, but I feel so low

I know it isn't right and not real fair but I can't control what's happening in my heart.

Last Goodnight

HOW CAN I SAY I LOVE HIM

WHEN I HARDLY EVEN KNOW HIM

HOW CAN I DARE TO TELL HIM

HOW MUCH HE MEANT TO ME

HOW DO I DARE TO HOPE

THAT MY FEELINGS AREN'T IN VAIN

WHEN DEEP INSIDE I KNOW

THAT WE CAN NEVER BE

HOW CAN I SAY I CARE FOR HIM

SO MUCH IT BREAKS MY HEART

HOW CAN I SAY I WANT HIM

WHEN I DON'T HAVE THE RIGHT

TO FEEL THESE THINGS I'M FEELING

AND TO DREAM THESE DREAMS I DREAM

WHEN DEEP INSIDE I KNOW

THIS COULD BE OUR LAST GOODNIGHT

This poem was written by one of my friend.

I found it quite meaningful and makes me want to share

It meant alot to me, that even makes me cry.

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I'm just a mysterious box that would no one able to unlock me.

I realise how much I grew up like last week

I realise how successful and powerful I can be

I promise that no one can stop me to walk on the road of success

I want to be stronger

To have all the spirits to push me into the word of confident and courages

I want to be what I dream to be

I won't turn back to my mistakes

And learn from them......

Message from God

You've carried the guilt, the shame for long enough

You've kept your wounds open for long enough

The time has to come to let go, to heal

Keep the lessons and let the pain heal

Yes, you know what we are talking about...

...nothing is exciting if you know what the outcome going to be

You keep wanting to know how things will play out

Keep asking to see the future

God doesn't give anyone the power to know the future

because life becomes maddeningly boring when you know everything upfront

So, instead of struggling, enjoy the uncertainty

To be alive means to not know...

...

It doesn't mean that I x love you when I x show you to the world,

Cause you are mine and not to be shared at all!!~~~