Message from God

You've carried the guilt, the shame for long enough

You've kept your wounds open for long enough

The time has to come to let go, to heal

Keep the lessons and let the pain heal

Yes, you know what we are talking about...

...nothing is exciting if you know what the outcome going to be

You keep wanting to know how things will play out

Keep asking to see the future

God doesn't give anyone the power to know the future

because life becomes maddeningly boring when you know everything upfront

So, instead of struggling, enjoy the uncertainty

To be alive means to not know...

...

It doesn't mean that I x love you when I x show you to the world,

Cause you are mine and not to be shared at all!!~~~

Am I?

There are lots of things happened around this few months,

Misunderstanding always built gap between the relationship,

How I hope these will ended asap...

Am i really that useless?

Am i really that stubborn?

Am i really that selfish?

Am i really the person that make a bad day?

I hope that we will never fight over small things

I hope we can try to understand each other thoughts

I hope that we can always hang a smile on the face everyday

I hope we try not to hurt each others heart anymore

I need a shoulder to cry on sometimes

I need to scream out whenever i'm stress out

I need a hug for warmness

I need to be protected

I can understand how a person changes from time to time

But i hope this will never happen,

I guess i really need to slow down,

and try to make a satisfactory ending...

I miss you, family and dogs!!!

I need to call the airasia customer services, I booked with master card and it showed error.. But then the seat i selected was taken where i guess it was me! Try to call then 4 times at this hour, but they are busy in line.. Used up my 30bucks credit in my phone.. what a waste!! GERAMNYA!!

Honeymoon?

Quite a while i didn't open my blog and talk craps about my life~ Been honeymoon for a few months. Nothing much really happened in this few months. We just had a lot of parties this few months until i want to mampus. This is Terlampau! Past few days, we went for a crazy day which there were alot of crazy sales with crazy people including us to shop crazily! Well i guess i spent about $200 all together. It was under my budget! Pwweeeuuuhhh.. Tht was lucky!

By the way, we had a wonderful night ystd. We made some dumplings where I'm really sucks in cooking. Oh well, it turned out prefect! They are prefect! What was so 'chuang' when my friends kept make me laughed PLUS video-ing! This is great! But it was really an enjoyable night!


Tomorrow, we are going for fishing! *Jump jump jump* I'm so happy as i love water so so much! I'm not going to fish but im going to play with the water! *Clap clap clap*

Few weeks ago, my sista shared a poem :


It's better to walk by faith than sight

In this path of urs and mine

And the darkest night

When there's no outer light

Is time for faith to shine

And others may do greater work

But u have ur part to do

And no one in all God's family can do it as well as u

Okay good night!


She is the strongest girl ever,
She is the One who hold the name of the leadership
And no one can surpass her
I want to be like her
To be like the one who brave enough to cross the wild jungle
I wish to follow her pathway
The only way to be successful!
And I don't care what other people say
I just have to do my parts!

Thanks sista~

Happy Valentines

Happy Valentines. For sure lots of people out there received a bunch of chocolates, roses, and some other romantic stuffs. Well last year, on the same day, I was at Melb airport. The place where i met my friend, Jia Yee. At the same time, it was her birthday! What a lucky gal. Anyway, guess i'm here birthday's present for last year. See how lucky she is. Haha. I bet she feels like slapping me now. Happy Sweet Buffday girl~

During this holidays, i taught my little bro on maths, geography and bm. Last week was his Pra-Pmr. Felt like want to kick him. Exam on the nxt day then only he opens the books today.[actually he copies me, haha]

Ystd went back to sibu. I went to do a prosedure on my face. The things that look like the pimples but not the pimples. Craps! After the prosedure, my face likes kena bite by the bees. Wtf. When out shopping, people giggle bout my face. And at night slept in btw my sis and mum, and i was facing left and right. I wonder do they had the nightmares in the middle of the night. I pity them. Well, now my face swollen like crap!

Leaving for Johor on 16th. Lazy to pack my stuffs. 

Anyway, Happy Birthday Jia yee!

God bless u as always~

See u soon!!

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A Gold Fish?

This morning woke up, i felt smthg uneasy with my eyes. So i went to take a look myself in front of the mirror. Oohh shit, my eye is swollen! Then i quickly went downstairs and asked my brother. 'Hey you, do u just hit my eye when i was sleeping last nite?' He laughed and pointed at my eye, 'A gold Fish' what the hell~

Well today i need to go for blood and urine test. So i need to bring the swollen eye with me! In order to cover it up, i decided to wear my new glasses.. Now thts look better~ During the test, the assistant injected on my left arm. Shit i know tht left arm is more painful than the right. So i asked her to do on the right. But then, she said the vessels on my right arm too small~ In the end, still go for the left arm. But what's the worst was, the assistant injected a few times on my left arm. Shit does she knows that it was actually painful? Ooohh my poor hand~ 

But no worries, we went to buy Roti Canai. Yummy~ Such a long time i havent eat roti canai. Then my brother ordered 2 roti planta for himself without my knowledge. Now this really pissed me off. What i do was.. i used my big goo goo eyes. But dont forget, my eye is still swollen. So it was really really funny. Haha. Well, i managed to persuade him. Then he gave me one roti planta.. Haha. =)

This few days kept raining. Hopefully the sky will turn blue soon or later. Anyway, i guess i left bout 10 days to go! Need to use my time wisely.. *peace*

My Gosh

Quite a while we haven't take pics together. Finally we are here! My mum's camera craps la.. If i knew this, i would bring my camera back! shit!! Altho it was a bit blur.. but still good~ Yeah still good.. See how tall is my little bro now?! ONE HEAD taller than me! Only a yr i havent met him and he was like BOMB plus more healthy (FAT)!!! HEHE. My sis also satu macam. Yes she is super slim and thin now! But still i like the previous size of her. A bit chubbier. Huahaha. And the second pic, there are my dogs.. Vickie and Brownie!! Ooopsssyy, i accidentally snapped brownie's little bro too.. Just ignore tht part!! DONT LOOK AT IT!! ITS MINE.. =.=

Well I promised my bro smthg again!

I promised him tht if he manage to get 

5As - $AUS100

6As - $AUS200

7As - $AUS300

for his coming PMR!!

I have to use this method to trick him since he loves money so much!!

I think im a bad sister!! Huahaha~ 

This is a dirty trick

Bad sister =p

Today went to JPJ to handle my driving license

What happened was..

My driving license suppose to renew on 1st Feb 2008..

So i was like one yr far behind!!

Shit this makes lots of troubles man!!

I need to do the 'surat rayuan'

My gosh dont know for how long i havent write BM essay for myself..

And this time i need to write a letter!

Hopefully i manage to renew my driving license!

Super duper troublesome.. SIGH

Only left 2 weeks to go!!

Sob sob~

Happy 2009

Finally I'm back for blogging!

Came back to msia on 15th Jan..

Super exhausted..

Overnighted for one nite!

But now im already at Home~

Just only came back then straight away went to salon to cut my stupid hair!

Done it without my mum knowledge!!

kakaka..

Then came back

she was super pissed.. and lectured me

Sigh wht so not good bout short hair??? HAR..

She complained tht im 'nan bu nan nu bu nu'

Dont know how many times she said tht..

Huahaha~

Well anyway,

Now is around Chinese New Year..

My sis bought some new year clothes for me

=)

In every new clothes,

We started our bitcy works..

TAKE PICS

Maybe after few days..

We are probably leaving for Sibu

My Wonderful place of birth

Do u know wht im going to do in Sibu??

Shhhh...

"I'm going to cut my hair again before I leave for Aussie" whispered

HUAHAHA (evil's laughs)

anyway, i left bout 2 more weeks to go..

sad thing to say!!!

BOring Friday!

Probably about this time on next week..

I'm already at my home play with vickie & Brownie

stupid boring day!

dunno wan to do wht!

Somemore today not working!

aih sien!

Left 6 more days!

i cant wait..

do the counting every single day

Like pat pho!

Dum dum~

Ooohhh God,

Pls let the time flies faster within this week ONLY

Summer Holiday!

Do u know how freaking busy i work in tassie?!
I'm super exhausted..
Wish to go back asap!!

I'm working in the Foodhall,
In the Farm,
In the Fish Factory!
WOW super busy + super tired..
But money comes to my bank after this!
hehe

During boxing day i bought a lot of stuffs
i bought clothes for my sis and bro..
Bought slippers for my dad and mum..
Plus i bought this silver bracklet for my mum..
And also necklace for my dad
All tgher i guess almost $500!!

Then my mum asked me to buy
- Honey
- Goat milk
- Lavender lotion
- Rolled Oat!!
Talking bout the rolled oat..
My mum always msg me to ask for the rolled oat..
'whr's my rolled oat? have u buy them yet?'
My gosh.. how the hell i know what it is.
Aduhai~

Somemore my bro wants 100 bucks from me!
All my money gone..
Can only heard the money machine sounds..
'Ka-ching Ka-ching'

Well anyway!!
i cant wait to go back!
I'm coming msia~
i got 11 more days to go..
*Giggling*

Happy New Cow Year!!!